If the birth control that I am taking is making me extremely irritable, can I please have something else? I feel like I could explode on somebody at any second. Call me Grumpy Goose because I’ve developed an irrational dislike for everyone and everything. Dumb bitches in class that won’t shut up, the abundance of Asian and Indian people on campus… it’s so random and stupid but I’m so easily annoyed now. Being ignored isn’t helping either. I’m kind of generally unhappy. I’m not as fit as I used to be and I wanna change, but I hate having to go through it alone. No help coming from my diet.

Sometimes I’d like to blow up on someone just to get the need for it out. I’m still pissed that I can’t find my watch. My dad gave it to me and I feel weird not wearing it. I have no idea where it is :( Things are just peachy. Woo.

I don’t remember the last time I was excited for a new video game. Every holiday season I’d see the new trailers for the latest titles and could imagine the Christmas lists of young men growing. That is, if their pre-orders made it to Christmas. Now that I have a boyfriend that works at GameStop and is the epitome of an avid gamer, I don’t have much to look forward to anymore. He will always have the latest release when it comes out and have played it and traded it in before I could even take the breath to ask if I could play.

All I want for Christmas nowadays are video games. I can’t think of anything else. And my parents can really only afford one sixty dollar game, so I pick one and that’s all I get. This year it’s Assassins Creed: Revelations. I want this game so bad, it’s ridiculous. But guess who gets it first? Granted he said he’d play it and give it to me to keep when he’s done with it. But it’s the principle of the thing. I want my own copy. I don’t want to have to wait for someone to get done with it before I can play it. It ruins the story for me. The same with Arkham City. I saw him play it, so it spoiled my interest.

Sadly, as a busy college student, my Xbox has sat covered in dust on my shelf. Like girlfriends of Modern Warfare junkies, it is no stranger to neglect. Come holiday time, I’ll try to give it more attention, but we’ll see if my excitement this year is on par with previous ones.

//I need a vacation.